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my name is kimberly

but i wish it was chrysanthemum

and since this is my blog

i am chrysanthemum



I live on a farm in Texas

with my daughter Jordy

our two dogs, Kerouac and Bijou

our horses

Thunder and Calamity Jane



I am:

a recovering addict

a rape and abuse survivor

but I am so much more too

I am:

searching. real. imperfect. changing.

certifiable. witty. jaded. in love.

melancholy. sarcastic. hot headed.

creative. invisible. troubled.

a survivor. insecure. stubborn.

emotional. a train wreck. bookish.

angry. grounded. superstitious.

complex. melodramatic. faking it.

careless. reserved. proud. a writer.

bent. opinionated. wandering.

hopeful. wishing. guilty. intimidated.

lonely. heretical. submissive.



I like:

getting e-mail. honesty.

true friendship. tea.

sharing common experiences.

arguing. writing. sleeping.

facing down demons.

tamales. good books.

learning something new.

beating back death.

music as religion. sex.

especially sex.

poetry as scripture.

tattoos. scars.

seven-minute frosting.

second chances.

ice cold Coca-Cola.

celery. darkness.

passing for normal.

chances to be authentic.



I want to:

be known.

love myself.

be healthy.

find my way home.

be loved.

have friends.

tell the truth.

say no.

believe in myself.

be proud of myself.

I'm trying to learn and grow.

I'm trying to survive my own decisions.

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Following

302 notes September 5, 2009 7 02 PM Reblogged from isay

isay:

ysabella:

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Like?

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